Also, My Husband and My Daughter.
Published on June 30, 2004 By simplethings In Blogging
I'M ALMOST IN THE TOP 100!!!!!!! I am so excited!! I couldn't believe it when I looked at my site's rank #!!

Shawn and I, are on the rocks. I love him. I really do. And I know he loves me. He tells me so all the time. And I can feel it when he holds me in his arms. He's so sweet. But he's also very hurt. Hurt by what his parents have done to him, hurt by my words, just plain old hurt.

Alysia has began to coo! It is so sweet! I was sitting on the couch just relaxing for a few minutes, and I heard this sweet little "oooo" I can't really explain it. Its not like a distinct coo. It's just cute!!!! I love it! She is so adorable. I have some more pictures, if you want to see them, just let me know!!

Well, Shawn wants to talk and lay in bed. . . mmm . . . I love him. . . thanks for all your help with my last blog. I don't know what I would do without your help.
Emma

Comments
on Jun 30, 2004

Here's the thing that no-one ever tells you about deployments...the reunion is just as hard as the leaving.  Dave and I had the most awful fights after he came back from TDY's, deployments and such.

It WILL be fine, Emma.  Go be with your husband and your baby, and shut out the rest of the world for a while.

on Jun 30, 2004
Emma, I have faith that things will work out, I really do. You both have had a lot of stress in your lifes lately and you need to work through the pain together.

Oh, and you KNOW I want pictures
on Jun 30, 2004
Karen-- I think I am hating these fights, Shawn fell asleep while I was talking to him, he used to listen so well, but. . .
It WILL be fine, Emma

Thanks! I really don't know how I would get by with out everyone's help.

Janders--Ok tomorrow if I have time I'll send you some! Thanks for having interest in seeing my baby, and also for helping me out .

Emma
on Jul 01, 2004
Emma....do you think that some marital counseling would help the two of you? And maybe some individual counseling for Shawn? Sounds like he has some issues to work out regarding his parents....he's obviously afraid of you two turning out like them, and that's got the danger of becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy if he spends too much time worrying about it and thinking about it. You're all in my prayers!!
on Jul 01, 2004
He agreed to getting some counseling while I'm working today, and after work we are going to have a counseling session together. So, we're sort of in the lines of getting help for all this.

Emma
on Jul 01, 2004
He agreed to getting some counseling while I'm working today, and after work we are going to have a counseling session together. So, we're sort of in the lines of getting help for all this.


Sounds like both of you want to work on it....which is a BIG step....good job and good luck to you!
on Jul 01, 2004
We are leaving in a few minutes. . . btw, after we go the work, and have our counseling sessions, we have to take Alysia to her check up. . .

Emma
on Jul 01, 2004
I'm sorry that I put you through all this shit, But I'm not ready to just discuss it with you yet, but do know that I love you.

Shawn
on Jul 01, 2004
When are you coming home? soon I hope. . . I need a kiss.

Emma